Thursday, September 20, 2012

Learning to Run

You taught me how to be everything I wanted to be. You told me I can reach anything I set my eyes on and not to short change myself.

I thought you would always be there. I depended on you. I thought you would never cause me pain. I trusted you.

It hurts. I felt betrayed as well. The realization of being alone and vulnerable with no one to depend on almost made me lose every bit of sanity I have. My world fell apart.

My problems are my problems. No one can solve them except me. I have to deal with them. I have to learn how to get up from this on my own, just like how we learn to run.

I'm picking up the pieces. My wounds have healed. I only have scars now. I forgive you though every logical part of me says you cannot be trusted anymore. Because underneath all the pain is my need to be protected, sheltered and fought for by you. What we have and who we are can never be changed.

I choose to move forward but it's your job to decide where we go from here.